Ok so I got a job. and now I got one thing checked off my to do list for the break.
So, I am pretty proud I was pretty sure I wasn't going to get it. It was just an eerie feeling. I start tomorrow, and it is an 8 hr shift!! For my first shift it is like holy shit. that is long.

Now my parents are treating me a lot better!!! phew. Another weight lifted off my shoulders.
and now I am going to be able to do alot more, which is very exciting. yay!

Mainly I have been doing alot of cleaning lately. I am soo tired of it. I almost got the money to fly Sarah to winnipeg.

The other day, My friends, and I had a card night at Elsbeth's. It was fun, I haven't seen most of them for a very long time.

I have been really bored with myself.
So, I have been updating a lot lately.
I hope you don't mind.
I feel kind of invisable, and I feel as though people are ignoring me.
I feel kind of forgoten in a way.
But, who cares.
Obviously I have had to much time to think.

Summer.
What I wanna do.

1) Fly Sarah out here.
2) Work
3) New Experience
4) Drivers License
4) Travel if possible.

Time to go and experience life.

So, it has not been that long.
But I decided to update my journal anyway.
Here it goes.
So I got all my final marks in, in Philosophy I got a B, in Native Studies an A, in Sociology a B, and in Math and Art a C. I am little upset with my math and art mark. It is such an easy class and that mark should be higher, but to be honest with you I barely studied for that exam so that would bring my mark down. Not only that my second art project was not done properly. I still managed to do well. I am proud.

As for job hunting...I havent gone yet. I know very lazy of me but I just haven't felt like it, and I have been a lazy sloth all week. I did some stuff. But nothing that I wanted to do, such as cleaning and organizing my room. Which I think I am going to do today actually. I should my room right now is a freaking pigpen.

I posted some new photo's and a poem. Come to realise I haven't posted any of my poems in a long time. I hope you enjoy it. I am a little rusty I have not been writing, well on a personal basis in a long time. Just school stuff. So I think I am going to be writing even more this break. We'll see what happens.

Keep in touch..Comment..fav.

<3 Bianca

A reflection.

So, it has practically been a month now. So, I think it's about time to update my journal.
I am officially done my first year of UNIVERSITY!!! I am soo proud, I made it!! It was a hard last few weeks of school.I had a crazy week where I had 3 final exams, and 2 things due for my math and art class. Let's just say I didn't get all that much sleep that week. I have recouperated from that week...finally. So, I did okay in my Sociology Final I only got an 62% but it was multiple choice, and I suck at those. Not only that I do have to admit I didn't study all that much for that exam. Just what I studied with Elsbeth at Chapters lol. My Philosophy, I got an A on my Final!!! And a B in the course I was so shocked with that one, because that class was very challenging. I loved it but it was very challenging. Then for my Native studies Class I got an A on the final exam and an A in the class. . I am so suprised actually that I did so well in my classes considering all the things that happened over Christmas Break. Although...my math and art exam I know did not end very well. I have this strange feeling in my stomach that I failed it. I know it`s Math and Art Right. According to Kate, if you don`t get at least a 40% in the exam you will fail. So, I have been just a little loopy. haha.

But that`s enough about School. I have been a sloth for the past week, and I have had to do a lot of thinking in that time aswell. For instance, figuring out what I really want to do in my life. What I want to do in the summer. See that was the really hard part. Becuase this past Sunday, I had a huge fight with my parents about that. They were comparing me to friends at their places of work, how this one treaty girl is working 3 part time jobs this summer and how I have currently nothing. How I am a Snob, and apparently I am ungrateful. Okie. First of all, I am not a Snob, I am pretty down to Earth. Second of all ungrateful, I have been helping out a lot more than usual. But they don`t notice due to my old tendancy of slacking with my chores, when it is the other way around with my sister. I am being blammed for her slacking off. It has been a pain in the ass...not going to lie.

I have figured out what I wanted to do this summer. First of all, I think I deserve a nice long break. For I haven`t had that much of a break, in the past two years..due to family illness, family troubles, school, life in general. It has worn me out. Especially this past year with the transition into University Life, doing more with my life, my sister being sick. I got the grey hairs to prove it. All my parents had to say that I was lazy, and that in the real world you don`t get a break, like your father and I we had to get back to work right away. Well you know what, I have an opportunity to have a break...and I am going to take it. And have new experiences and do what I want for once.
I have a lot to deal with. It feels as though I have had the most heavy weight in my life lifted off my shoulders. I am going to embrace it, and have it all for what it`s worth.

``You're entitled to your opinion
But it's really my decision
I can't turn back I'm on a mission
If you care don't you dare blur my vision
Let me be all that I can be
Don't smother me with negativity
Whatever's out there waiting for me
I'm going to faced it willingly

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own
Flesh and blood to the bone
See, I'm not made of stone
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down to long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone`` -Joss Stone- Right To Be Wrong

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Good Morning,

So on this glorious sunday morning, I decided to update my journal.
It has definatly been awhile. Although, I have been working on some new stuff that I posted and I will be posting alot more. I hope you enjoy my work, leave comments.
To talk about my new stuff, well there a lot of headshots of me...maybe I am just a little bit conceeded lol. And some stuff from Lockport, more of St. Andrews Church. And some picture from my walk home from school. And soon to come pictures of my dogs.

Anywho, I may not be updating in the next couple of weeks. I have a lot on my plate. Most well, has to do with school. So here it goes...lol. It is the end of winter term, and I am still in awe of how fast that passed. Last week of school is the week of April 9th 2009. And I have 3 exams in the first 3 days of that week. For instance, on Monday I have my last Philosophy exam, then tuesday my Native Studies Final, then lastly, Sociology. Then...on thursday, my sketchbook, and assignment #2 for my Math in Arts course is due on the same day. So in the meantime I have been preparing for battle. I am pretty sure that I can do this, seeing as though I have done it before. Hence the week after reading week. haha chaos happened there.

On a personal note,
I have been doing alright, can't complain. I am tired more than usual. (but thats what university does to a person). After school is done, I have to go on a search for a part-time job. The reason why I have decided to have a part-time rather than a full-time job is because I have been through so much in the past year..sickness, stress, getting used to University, and all that. So I want more time for myself. Is that greedy? ha ha. I feel as though I have lost myself. I need to find myself. I wanna have some new experiences. That is what I am looking forward too. Not only that, but I want to save enough money to fly out my friend in the Summer. I miss her.

Anywho, I gotta prepare for battle.

Bianca <3